Nurtured Words

Hello lovelies,

It is that time again, where we are now halfway through the year, I post and share my experiences of the most recent quarter. My, what a journey it has been. Due to my dissociative amnesia kicking up a lot I had to review my journals in order to write this post.

Last quarter
Describe the last quarter in 3 words: intense, empowering, quick

What was hard during this quarter and how was it overcome?

I faced so much dissociation, I faced stigma, it’s been tough going mentally, resting has been difficult, and deferring masters was rather upsetting. I have, really, been in a slow burn breakdown. I reached out for help with talking therapies but they stated I was too complicated and have now passed me onto secondary care again. So there is more waiting.
I overcame them through having a strong support network to lean on and be comforted. I have been journalling to try to remember more. I often discussed things with my now fiancé. I have meditated more often; quite honestly, I have been trying to ease up on my need to do things!

What were the successes?

• Started volunteering and I feel like I belong in all three roles
• My weight loss has been successful
• My body feels much stronger
• My financial situation has improved
• My sense of spirituality has come together
• I have started a Zen course to learn more about the Plum Village tradition
• I got engaged!

Overall score and comments: 🪷🪷🪷🪷🪷

Next quarter

Word and affirmation for the next quarter: Believe and embrace. Present moment, wonderful moment.

Goals for the next quarter and first steps to take:

• Make a trip to fiancé’s family – work up courage for trip
• Finalise my anthology – edit works
• Create mindful guide – plan exercises, choose template
• Complete Zen course – keep attending sessions and reflect after each one.
• Make financial goals – look at current situation
• Manage my emotions – deep rest, improve sleep, learn to look deeply

How confident do I feel? I’m setting small goals that are manageable, I feel pretty confident. 🪷🪷🪷🪷

Journal prompt: Spend 5 minutes taking stock: what are your successes, what are you grateful for, what do you hope comes next?

Kindly, Leanne x