#51 projects

Little steps bring big action, they’re more meaningful

Hello my lovelies,

I thought I’d post a little update on my goals and projects as a whole. In recent weeks I have had a few realisations and an epiphany or two which I hope to expand on here. The interesting takeaway is that these goals fundamentally all connect to intention.

Therapy

Goals: Engage in processing my emotions and actively use coping strategies. Figure out what is not working.

How it’s going: So I have only completed a few sessions but I think it’s going as well as it can. There is a lot of talking but it is really helping to process things. I am getting a lot of information which I set as my homework to act on the practical advice. For example, I have now devised a little process for when thoughts and/or emotions instantly overwhelm me. I also have, lightly, figured out part of what is not working which I hope to solve. Despite learning much more about my trauma, I have realised I have issues with rest and self-care. I feel like I have to prove myself worthy of existence, I am doing so much that I am quite literally exhausting myself. Then, in trying to care for myself, it is a passive process rather than intentional action. It is so routine and passive I am doing it just because I feel I have to rather than for the joy it brings me. This will all take time to unlearn but I now have the support I need.

Education

Goals: Add a new qualification and find a second to undertake this year.

How it’s going: I have now completed Suicide First Aid Training so I can call myself a first aider. However, I am currently working on receiving a Level 4 Award in this to further cement my abilities. I should have a result in a little while after I have done a rather large assignment. I would also like to get a Level 1 Certificate in Substance Misuse, then altogether have wide ranging skillsets and knowledge.

Poetry

Goal: Write more intentionally and find new inspirations.

How it’s going: I am currently learning haiku as a way of exploring insight of the world. Nature is my inspiration. I am trying not to force myself to write for the sake of it. I am trying to be kinder to myself if I find I don’t have inspiration. I am also, finally, organising my poetry every month to six weeks. I write them wherever, type up and print to add to a journal I have long sought to find a purpose for. Again, right intention.

Spirit

Goals: Re-educate myself on the runes, add more castings alongside oracle pulls.

How it’s going: It was actually a runecasting that led to my realisations of intention needing to be from aspiration. I learned the runes from a divine feminine perspective which I really connected with and I am doing more divination. It is rather lovely. I am trying to get back into using my Space more, but it has been rather difficult. I will get there though.