Nurtured Words

Hello my lovelies,

My, my, the weather here has been so varied and that seems to match my life right now. Varied. Extreme. Large changes.

In the last few months I have taken a break from work, from projects and focused on my recovery, therapy and having a respite in Dorset. This was to get me back on an even keel, whilst I am still unwell (had seizures last night and fatigue today), I feel ready to start creating again.

I will be posting once a fortnight, possibly more and I hope to bring a range of topics, I would love to do a few on literature and the like.

Therapy has been intense, there has been a lot of skill learning and a refresher of different elements. I now have a crisis kit in what I call my housebag which holds all kinds of hobby things and items I may need – including my journal. The respite was perfect, especially for seeing the wider family, I once again felt at ease and at home. I saw many lovely donkeys at The Donkey Sanctuary, had the best ice cream I have ever tasted and just relaxed.

My moods have been up and down; whilst my hallucinations are lessening, my sensitivity to mood changes and seizures is increasing, don’t ask me about my sleep though. Either way, I can safely say I am learning as I go. I realised I am too harsh and disciplined trying to attain more and more accomplishment. The pressure became too much. I am now trying to take each moment, literally moment, slowly. I am not wishing my time away and I am trying to unlearn the need for pressure. I am finding it is helping me to be a being. I find I can cope better. Almost like a switch has turned on.

I have started up volunteering again with Resilience and helping other clients get back into the community, much like I need. I am in a good enough space again.

So, I haven’t been “doing” much, but I am living my life with authenticity. I’m not hiding. I’m not forcing anything. I am here.

Take care of yourselves, kindly, Leanne x